Saturday, November 05, 2005

Changes (Excerpts from life)

Eventually all the pieces will fall into place, until then? laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.

Somewhere along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

Don't waste your youth growing up.

It's not where you came from, it's where you're going. It's not what's on you, but what's in you. It's not what you're driving, it's what drives you.

If nothing changed, there'd be no butterflies

Life is chaos, chaos is life, control is an illusion

Enjoy yourself. These are the good old days you're going to miss in the years ahead.

It's funny how one moment can change your entire life.

Sometimes you gotta stop and remember,your not gonna live forever. Be young, think smart, stay true, and just follow your heart.

Take nothing but pictures. Leave nothing but footprints. Kill nothing but time.

So often time it happens, we all live our life in chains, and we never even know we have the key.

You gotta take some chances, you gotta risk losing it all, you gotta close your eyes and leap because it just might be worth the fall

Life is about change, sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful, but most of the time it's both. - Smallville

You cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.

Sometimes there is no next time, no time out, no second chance... Sometimes it's now or never.

Your whole life is about to change in a way that it will never be the same again, your opening a new chapter, and you have to give a proper goodbye to the old one. You don't want to miss these moments, even the sad ones, because you'll never get them back again. So enjoy this time, let it wash over you so that your memories of it are strong.

Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life.

There are 2 things which prevent us from achieving our dreams. The first is the belief that they are impossible and the second is seeing them made possible by the twist of the wheel of fortune when we least expect it. For at that moment, all our fears rise to the surface: the fear of suddenly setting off along a road heading god knows where, the fear of a life full of new challenges, the fear of losing forever all that is familiar

Maybe happiness didn't have to be about the big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in your life in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing slippers and watching Miss. Universe contest Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little up ticks-the traffic signal that said Walk the second you got there-and down ticks-the itchy tag at the back of your collar-that happened to every person in the course of a day. Maybe everybody had the same allotted measure of happiness within each day. Maybe it didn't matter if you were a world-famous heart throb or a painful geek. Maybe it didn't matter if your friend was possibly dying. Maybe you just got through it. Maybe that was all you could ask for.

It's funny how the world changes sometimes, how the streets you walked your entire life seem darker, colder. How the silence isn't so quiet anymore. How eyes you've barely even noticed now look at nothing but you. How the walk home every night is no longer routine, but a victory. And then you begin to wonder...maybe it's not the world that's changed. Maybe it's just you and then, suddenly...you begin to wonder all over again

I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.

Every night before I go to sleep I lie on my bed and stare up at my blank walls. I try to imagine the future, but right now it's as blank as those walls. All I can see is a past that I barely recognize any more.

As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself. People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well. Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down. You'll come to realize eventually, that even though things are different, you are as well.

Bottom line is, even if you see em coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change. Not really. But it does. So, what, are we helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come. Can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that really counts. That's when you find out who you are.

Change is never easy; you fight to hold on, you fight to let go.

Time is the best and worst thing we've got. Because nothing last forever - but then again, nothing ever stays the same

We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relieve a happy moment, or say goodbye just one last time, we never can, because the sands of time continue to fall, and we can't turn the hourglass over.

Growing up happens in a heartbeat. one day you're in diapers, next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a place... a town... a house like a lot of other houses. A yard like a lot of other yards... On a street like a lot of other streets. And the thing is... after all these years, I still look back... With wonder.

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... For growing up.

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.

Being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up, these are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart and eventually u'll finally get it right. -The Ataris

When is the age or even the moment when you go from being kids to being something else? People say that we're growing up too fast today. Sometimes adults make it sound like it's our fault or at least our choice, but how can we not? We feel invincible, we know so much. One thing I do know is that we're so edgar to lose our innocense and I wonder if one day, we'll look back and wish we hadn't

When exactly did we go from being kids to just being people, I'm not sure. I do know that it's not about turning a certain age or graduating from school. It happens when you're not paying attention. We go from playing with our friends to playing with our friend's feelings. Without our knowledge or consent childhood slips away in the night and our innocence escapes us and we wake up one morning to find we have become who we are.

I wonder if one day when you look back on your life you'll see its not always about the big picture. It's really all about the moments and maybe one day you'll look back and string all those moments together and then you'll realize when you add them all up,your life is more meaningful than you could have dreamed.

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces. Each one is different, but they're always the same. They mean me no harm but its time that I face it, they'll never allow me to change... But, I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong... I'm moving on.

We all start out in kindergarten thinking we can be anything we want to be. And by the time we get here, we've all lost that feeling. We've all started to believe whatever our friends or our parents have told us about what we can achieve in life and who we can be. And we've forgotten about the possibility we had when we were younger.

Still remember the world from the eyes of a child, slowly those feelings were clouded by what I know now. Where has my heart gone, an uneven trade for the real world. I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.

Just when a catepillar thinks the world is going to end, it turns into a butterfly.

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core of strength within you that survives all hurt .

You start life with a clean slate. Then you begin to make your mark. You face decisions, make choices. You keep moving forward. But sooner or later there comes a time where you look back over where you have been... and wonder who you really are

Everything changes eventually. Thats just the way life is. And you have no control over it. Suddenly people you thought would always be there disappear. People die, they move away, and they grow up.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

The young faces in these pictures represent times when our biggest worries were Barbie and Ken's wedding, GI Joe's missing arm, and why we had to eat vegetables at dinner again. Looking at these pictures today, sometimes we, the seniors, wish we could go back to such carefree days. But at the same, time moving on with our lives, making new memories, and gaining independence have become exciting realities that were once ideas that seemed so far away. Since sixth grade we have counted down the days until graduation. Now as the day approaches we are still anxious, but somewhat nervous. The faces in these pictures remind us of the people we once were and still are, the friends we have grown up with and also whom we will graduate with. Surviving the past 12 years wasn't easy, but in that time we had some of the best experiences of our lives. Those times are what made it worthwhile.

Remember when you thought boys had cooties...when friends were new, dreams were un-shattered and worries few...when recess was too short and life was too long...decisions came easily without need to belong...when storks delivered the babies and passions weren't so strong...friendships were un-broken...right was right, and wrong was wrong...when bad things didn't happen...when only skinned knees brought tears and the night light in it's socket quieted all our fears...when farewell meant just for summer and real friends didn't part...the fun went on forever and never left a broken heart.

People change its a part of life, but sometimes its easier to hold on to the memories of who they were..rather then to realize who they have become

The reason people hold onto memories for so long is because its the only thing that doesnt change.

It suck when someone you know becomes someone you knew.

Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed. - Irene Peter

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

The Art of Letting Go

This is a song by an artist named Mikaela. I've never heard of her. I don't know if any of you heard of this song or of the artist but I found it in one of my brother's folders. I was about to write another poem but it just wouldn't come out right. I heard this song and it really struck a chord in me. Somehow it was kinda like a sign. One of those days, I guess. I was thinking something up when suddenly I stumbled upon this song.

I searched the net for the lyrics and this is how the song goes.

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Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

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I'm posting this song here so someday, after a long, long time, I will look back at this and remember how love comes and goes. I want this to remind me of how difficult it is to give in to emotion and just go blind to everything else.

You'll probably figure out who this song goes out to. This is how life goes on. For you, I'm letting you know that my emotions will set me free. My captor and my liberator. There will be no chains around my heart for you. Someday I will set myself free.

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