Wednesday, September 03, 2008

The Joker. My critique on the man

Before all the spandex and the silly man who wore his underwear outside his pants there was only the Dark Knight. Somewhere between his story was Alfred's story about his life before Wayne.

Alfred: When I was in Burma, a long time ago, my friends and I were working for the local Government. They were trying to buy the loyalty of tribal leaders, bribing them with precious stones. But their caravans were being raided in a forest north of Rangoon by a bandit. We were asked to take care of the problem, so we started looking for the stones. But after six months, we couldn't find anyone who had traded with him. One day I found a child playing with a ruby as big as a tangerine. The bandit had been throwing the stones away.
Bruce: Then why steal them?
Alfred: Because he thought it was good sport. Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.

Alfred was right. Of course, he may have his own version of the character he was talking about but there is another term for this and a lot of modern day heroes fall in this category - even Batman himself. You see, people like these are seen time again as the ideal people. The character in Alfred's story isn't just watching the world burn but is after the basic thing that most egotistical people want - GLORY. As one person describe's Lara Craft: "While others want the money she's just in it for the glory."

Earlier in my life when I was young, naive and foolish, I, too, was in it for the glory. I couldn't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. I prided myself for my loyalty and, frankly, that hasn't gotten my anywhere! If my bosses would ask me to hijack our competitors' armored car I would do it so I could burn their daily earnings right in front of them. That goes without saying that I'd do it for free!

The disturbing thing about being the Hero or The Joker is that society unwittingly gives you the right to be manipulative where you can "introduce a little anarchy and upset the order". Both the hero and the villain puts the world in chaos by either their absence or their presence (hopefully in that order.)

I relate to a lot of things in the Joker's character in many ways but the following are my favorites:
1) He prefers to use knives than guns due to their usage being "personal" between him and his victims. I agree. I like bladed weapons as well. I simply cannot shoot somebody at close range in a scuffle but I can blindly cut anyone near me without having take a second to aim for them.
2) He enjoys reminding humanity of its weakness and relishes on the misery that manifests itself on this weakness. In the real world, one of the boats would have blown up by now. Nobody is as upstanding as they claim to be. Thus, break a plan and everyone falls into chaos.
3) He is not necessarily a person you would attempt to interpret or understand lest you want to come out with some form of body injury that requires stitches - lots of them.

Today it's all about the money. In the world of Supermans and Batmans where you can project to the world an image that you are invincible you can live off the rest of your happy life basking in glory. In the real world, you don't live forever, you can't shield bullets and you can't afford a crime fighting car so better settle for a high paying job. And when you're done projecting a facade of being glorious than you really are, you can move on to other people who look at you as a bigger hero who, at the right price, can be bought, bullied, reasoned and negotiated with. It's that time in our life when we stop playing superhero and start being a man - human.

My advice: Take the money because glory, just like love, doesn't pay the bills. Grow up. You always do.

Why I blog

Maybe I'm just rolling with the fad or maybe I am subconsciously begging for attention but some readers have commented that for some reason I am a "good" writer. *cough* *cough* A little padding for my ego there. *cough*

However, considering that I rarely have visitors in my blog this gives me borderline freedom to say anything about anything and anyone so don't blame me for calling your mom a dirty little slut and your religious prophet a bloomin' fag who sodomizes children because you weren't here to read about it. I just simply love to exploit the irony of sharing free information while at the same time be amused at the ignorance caused by human pride. :p


Perhaps I am here now because I like to talk about the things I WANT instead of some underpaid school teacher asking and grading me for my opinion about something that I don't give a jackshit.

Looking back, I can still remember my elementary principal nagging about my lack of words about an essay our grade six teacher asked us to make.

"Your grandfather was a great writer so don't disappoint me. I expect more from you." Sheesh! Like I would be interested in writing about my thoughts on fairy tales (like why Snow White has fetishes for orgies with dwarves) when at that time I was already reading about the theories behind the Egyptian pyramids! (that and alongside my recent discovery of a book in our library about fucking - sexual intercourse for the literate)

Finally and for the record, I mostly blog about love or work because the rest of the overgrown crap that's out there is something that doesn't concern most of us. I'm filling in the niche here that nobody wants.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Too late or the right time for commitment? (or just keep waiting)

I saw her again. After all these years I have searched but she found me instead. So much has happened in the times we have not met. Time has a way of entwining our fates. Who am I talking about? You may think that I am talking about the one who got away but I'm talking about someone totally different. This was someone far way back in the past - more than a decade ago. I've only known her for a short time and yet her beauty and her charm has never escaped me. She was unforgettable. So unforgettable that she was one of those women in my life that even long before she has left my life I would see her everywhere.

I just realized that there had been a lot of girls in the past that I could've loved. I was such a torpe (insensitive) guy back then. These women were far more deserving of me than all those mistaken relationships I've been through. Here was Chad always settling for second best because I always thought that I wasn't good enough for the best. Sigh... Yet here I am regretting those hearts I could have wooed that wouldn't give a second thought of me being the Mr. Right for them.

While fate has a way of punishing the guilty it also has a very subtle way of protecting the innocent. As a consolation, I always told myself that if I were to look back at me then, immature, childish and selfish (actually I still am but in a very amusing way), these girls would be no different than those I loved before. Perhaps it was just a stroke of blessing that I shouldn't be loving them at a time when I wasn't responsible enough to love the right people. Maybe I loved the wrong women so I would spare the good ones the worst in me.

They say that a person who truly loves you has seen the worst and the best in you and still look and love you anyway. I would like to add to this the belief that not only will the right woman love me but will also be a good person to herself and to others (although not inherently) that she only brings out the best in me and forget about the worst. Mom always said that it's the woman who brings the family and the man together. Find the wrong one and your life and your future goes spiraling down the road of despair.

Let's face it, oil prices are rising. I have projected my ridiculous salary from today and into perpetuity. In no way can my savings or earnings afford me a family of my own. Am I making some sort of mistake in my calculations or are men just genetically incapable of budgeting for marriage? I mean, I factor in a house, utility bills, a baby and all expenses that come with bringing it up as well as taking care of a wife not to mention the occasional vacation getaways. I just can't add it up to something I can spend quite reasonably even if I'm earning one hundred thousand a month! Has the modern economy made it impossible or even too late for me to catch the commitment wagon? I don't want to follow in the footsteps of those who think marriage is something we should hurriedly rush into and within a few years they start killing each other. Even if they DO survive each other they still have to survive the world and all the storms that reality rains down on them. This again reminds me of the urgency to find the one person I can trust because these days you just can't trust anyone with yourself. I'd like to remind myself that mistakes are costly and when it comes to marriage it's a long term cost of yourself.

There are a lot of "those who got away" in my life but life is too short to live with certain regrets.

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